I refuse to be at the ass end of everything. From now on, I will look out for myself. I will become bitter. I will make sure that all of my expenses and endeavors, are covered and more.
Its a shame that people can take advantage of people, that are only trying to help you in the first place. In the end the only person affected is me. Not you. Go cry me a fucking river about how you feel so bad about certain things. I could care less.
This town breeds fuck asses. Its like they intentionally go out of their way, to make other people's lives, a living hell.
This is probably one of the main reasons I deleted my facebook last month. It all boiled up inside of me, to the point where I thought that if I recluse myself, again, people would actually give a shit. This formula is boof, because these fuck asses, never really, truly ever learn anything. They use up the resource as much as they can, and once the resource(me), is done dealing with it, or "tapped", they move on to some other brainless twitt, that can be so naive to think that there actually are other people out there, that give a shit about whats going on in other peoples lives.
I feel like I have wasted so much energy, time, money, and life, on people that wouldnt even blink if I died tomorrow. I constantly make others peoples ends meet, thinking that my time will eventually come around.
This year will mark my 25th year of life on this piece of shit planet. I hope that something indeed does wipe us all off the face of the earth, so I no longer have to deal with living among all of you disgusting creatures of hate, malice and revenge.
A while back I heard a quote I liked, Go where you are celebrated, not tolerated. I don't think there are too many places on this earth that Im celebrated, so I wouldn't have far to go.
ReplyDeleteUnfortunately, this world is just self absorbed. People want to be heard, not listen, they want to be validated, but they don't want to validate others. They want to recieve compassion, but not express it.
It's a very maddening world we live in.
I find myself going out of my way to celebrate people, their lives. It's hardly ever returned and it's just a sad wake up call.
Just when I say I'm stopping, I'm going to only look out for myself, it never happens, Because it just isn't in my personality. I can't just turn it off as hard as I try.
I relish those few people that genuinely celebrate me and are thankful for things things I do. It makes you appreciate those people more when you find them.
There isn't a day that goes by that atleast one person or group of people don't show what a sad world we have become. It's sad when you have to go out of your way to find an act of kindness, but hate and lack of empathy is abundant.
--- Momma Pierce
And that is my problem. I can sit here and say it until my throat goes dry, but I am just not that kind of person. I can only stay upset for a bit before I go right back to the way I was raised. Forgive, forgive, forgive, and then forgive again. Will this eventually pay off? Im not sure, but I can only imagine what kind of life the people that are doing the screwing over, have. Thanks Momma ;)
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